do you ever think really awful thoughts and suddenly become aware that you are not a good person
always
i could give you my rant on how being raised in a world dominated by orthodox (i.e. morality is based on thinking the right things rather than doing the right things) religions fucks with your head, but i’ll keep it short
- if you have a dark thought that you find actively distressing, how can that thought be reflective of your basic morality? intrusive thoughts are distressing precicely because they go against your moral core. everyone has them sometimes and some mental illnesses come with a lot more of them, and they suck but they don’t make you a bad person
- if you have a dark thought that you don’t find distressing, but you choose not to act on it because you know it would hurt yourself or others, how can that thought be reflective of your basic morality when you’re making the moral choice not to act on it? that choice is what defines you, not the thought
- if you have a dark thought that you choose to act on, but realise later that it hurt someone and you don’t want to be someone who hurts people, how can that thought be reflective of your basic morality? you know you fucked up and you’re trying to do better, and that’s what defines you; not the thought, and not your past
everyone has dark impulses sometimes, both concious and unconcious, if that’s our rubrick for what makes a good person we might as well throw out the entire human race. what defines a person is what they choose to do with those impulses, and, and this is the big one, whether they’re trying to be better today than they were yesterday.











